it is the best?

assalamualaikum..
still doing my research about what is the best topic to choose as my thesis..
fuh, Allahumma yassir wala tua'ssir.. is not easy actually..
the main point was there, but I can't proceed anything because i keep asking myself 'it is the best topic? it is the latest issue? and bla bla bla
 talking about the best, it reminds me to someone..
actually dari tadi ulang dengar lagu embun.. I know something goes wrong deep inside my heart tonight..
Pernah tak rasa tetiba semua benda macam pop out kat ingatan? macam tetiba perasaan yang cuba dikawal akhirnya tewas dalam satu saat? YES, that is what I feel right now..
it happened a few weeks ago,maybe a month ago.. I don't want to remember it anymore.. because it gives me a scar that I never thot Allah will put me in that situation..
but Alhamdulillah, I believe Allah plans better..

but when it suddenly bothering my mind, I will keep asking myself " it is the best?"
"am I not good enough?' 'am I giving too much?'

people will come and go in our life kan?
:)

Since I closed my heart last year, he is the only one who give me a trust to try again..I love him as my bestfriend but as a normal person we finally ended up with a beautiful dream.. macam nak bla,bla,bla..rancang nak bla,bla,bla
but at last he did the thing that was beyond my expectation..
No blame sebab Allah yang pegang hati kita..:)

and who know how dramatic my life now..
but sorry guys, I know you all will do the same thing eventually..
so I decide not to give every single of you a chance..
you can ask for a million or billion times, but you will nvr get..

dulu pernah berangan2 nak bercinta lepas kahwin..
but when someone proposed me to marry him..fuhh
I got that feeling.. It is not so sweet..

Hati ni bukan da serik
cuma terlalu banyak benda nak di fikir..
org akan cakap saham tengah naik memang semua orang akan jual mahal..
tapi percayalah..
perasaan kita Allah yang detikkan.. suka ke benci ke sayang ke cinta ke..

Selamat Malam ..:D